is kind of orange 😛 and I know this because last night was beautifully clear, so I got my telescope out. I’m hoping the sky will stay like this for a few days because the peak of the Perseids meteor shower is in four days time, but in the meantime I knew Jupiter is pretty close to the moon at the moment so I thought I’d see if I could find it. Success! Not only could I see Jupiter – complete with cream and orange cloud bands – but I could also see four of its moons: Ganymede, Callisto, Io and Europa. Wow. I’ve never managed to find a planet with my telescope before. Probably sounds a bit daft, because I have had it for 18 months, but about 15 of those months were spent at weights far too low to enjoy standing around outside or lugging very heavy telescopes around, and although I live at a pretty dark site that doesn’t mean the sky is always clear, the weather is not often very conducive to amateur astronomy on the south coast of England! Plus, I haven’t had anyone to show me how my telescope actually works, I tend to just take it out and attempt a sort of point and shoot business. Anyway, I think I’ve gotten the hang of it now 😀
This is yet another thing I have stolen back from the anorexia. The stupid eating disorder successively stole a lot of things that I cared about in York – the astronomy, juggling and concert band societies (too cold and tired), the ability to socialise outside of class (too brain dead and anxious), the opportunity to enjoy the rather fabulous gluten free and vegan restaurant in town, the enjoyment I got from my coursework (yeah whatever, I know I’m a nerd and I’m fine with that 😛 I just love problem solving), and finally it forced me to leave the course completely, having totally wiped out my health and my personality. I’ve been stealing them back over the last few months! I went to that restaurant when I went on my northern road trip a couple of weeks ago, I got my poi out again, I’m thinking of joining a local concert band, I am trying to find some voluntary work so I can start socialising again, the materials for the Open University physics course should be arriving sometime in early September, and my telescope is not locked in the study anymore. I get frustrated sometimes that rebuilding my life takes so damn long, but looking at it like that I’ve made quite a lot of progress.
Before I got too ill, cold and tired to go out with the astronomy society in the evenings, I did get to have a look at the Andromeda galaxy through their eight inch reflector. It was amazing. Another GALAXY. It just kind of blows my mind (apparently I’m short on words to describe the experience, lol). That was the same kind of feeling I got last night when I realised that I could actually see not just the shape of Jupiter, but some of the weather systems. Just…wow. That’s the sort of thing that makes life worth sticking around for. And amateur astronomy is far, far more enjoyable and comfortable at an almost-healthy weight than it is when anorexic 😛
I got this award from Hannah and Emma – thank you so much girls!
“This award is bestowed on a fellow blogger whose blog content or design is, in the giver’s opinion, brilliant. This award is about bloggers who post from their heart, who often in times put their heart on display as they write from the depths of their soul.
There are three rules that need to be followed on accepting this award:
1. Brag about it!
2. Select seven blogs you find brilliant and link back to them.
3. List ten honest things about yourself.”
Heh…these things always embarrass me a bit. It’s hard publically announcing that you accept people saying nice things about you! Probably good practise though.
The seven bloggers I am passing this on to are:
1. Jessica, because the second sentence of the award description could have been written with her in mind
2. Kim, because she always makes me think (and usually laugh as well)
3. Jemima (although she’s already had this passed on to her by a dozen people :P) because I think she’s really brave and her posts always seem to come from the heart
4. Lexi, who has stuck with recovery and kept fighting for as long as I’ve been reading her blog, and I think that’s actually harder than the initial weight gain business
5. Katie, who I have known for approximately a million years (oh ok, eight :P), who actually has an art blog but is courageously putting material from her graphic novel about her experiences with anorexia up on her blog alongside her other work
6. Fiona, who has just started blogging again after a bit of a break, who I really admire for her tenacity in the face of clueless dieticians and psychiatrists who masquerade as prophets of doom 😉
7. and blueeyedheart, because she is always honest and keeps going even when things are rubbish. Sometimes there’s a hell of a lot of rubbish before anything good happens, and it’s not easy to carry on regardless.
And now I’m off to make my lunch! I’ll do the ten things about me bit later 😛