Under the Stars is gone. I was quite sad to push that “delete blog forever” button, but it’s done now! I have officially moved into my new “home” here 🙂
Another ending occurred last night, as I went to my final level three counselling class and handed in my portfolio. I was so happy to get rid of it – counselling portfolios are a nightmare, so many different criteria to check off and cross reference – but sad to say goodbye to the other people in my class. I went to the pub with some of the others afterwards, where they proceeded to get drunk and I sat there with my orange juice giggling at them. Hopefully we will stay in touch. I will see some of them when I start college again in September, but not all of them are applying for the next course. They are the first people I made friends with in Newcastle, so they won’t be getting away from me that easily 😛 (in as uncreepy a way as possible…). This is the second course I’ve finished since I had to leave York, so I’m slowly convincing myself that recovered-Katie CAN keep herself healthy enough to see things through. Good for the self esteem, that 😉
My blood pressure is behaving a lot better today. It was awful yesterday, I felt dizzy all day regardless of what I was doing. I resorted to eating an entire pot of olives at one point in hope that the salt might help, but all that did was make me have to get up half a dozen times in the night to pee! My poor body. I get frustrated with it for not working properly now I’m treating it so much better, but I should be patient. I’ve noticed in the last couple of months that my concentration is a lot better and my weight seems to be redistributing itself a little – I’ve been at my target for more than a year now, so that’s just about right on schedule. So clearly my body is still healing, and I just need to give it time. My blood pressure problems are genetic, my mum had really low BP and palpitations until she went and had five kids, but I don’t think the anorexia helped things. And I’m not having children just to make my body behave!
Today I am revelling in the lack of counselling work to do, throwing the massive spider out of my bath (I’ve caught three big spiders and two huge bumblebees in the house in the last week, I’m not too impressed at the size of the insects around here! Although I quite like bees and I’m not phobic of spiders, I’m just not keen on them jumping out on me), and attending a management committee meeting of the ED charity so I can tell them about my attempts to get them established on social networking sites.